This is the work of racial reconciliation! It is HARD work to look inward. I never would label myself as a racist (as I’m sure you probably wouldn’t either). But do I struggle with biases and prejudices that I have learned over the years? Yes. If we are all honest with ourselves, we all hold some biases and prejudices that we don’t even realize are there until we look inward. When I first started this process of looking inward, I discovered some ugly. And I’m going to be vulnerable and give you an example of the ugly I discovered in my heart in an effort to get you thinking too.
Sometimes I would find myself clutching my purse more tightly when walking down the street past a black man.
Why did I do this? Was it all black men, or just select black men? What prejudices was I unconsciously harboring in my heart that was affecting me to act this way?
And so I had to confess this sin. I confessed it to God and to the racial reconciliation group I was a part of. And while I still may feel this tendency come on, I’m aware of it, and I confess it again. All the while believing that he who began a good work in me, will carry it to completion. Sin loves hiding in the dark, it wants you to believe your fine so that it can keep on living. But once sin is exposed, its power is relinquished, and can no longer fester in your heart if you don’t allow it to. Commit to looking inward. Stop pointing the finger at others, and start doing the work in your own heart. We all have heart work to do. This is why racism is so destructive, it goes unchecked and then eventually spills out. “The mouth speaks what the heart is full of” Matthew 12:34. That is why when you commit to racial reconciliation work…it’s committing to it forever. We have to constantly be on guard, and active in searching our hearts.
LAMENT
Lament is defined as: A passionate expression of grief or sorrow
This word was new to me a few years ago. Maybe you are feeling it right now. You feel grief and deep sorrow over Ahmaud, Breonna, and George’s life, and you wonder why you feel it so deeply? Lamenting is something we all need to learn to do. In fact, it is important to allow yourself to lament such horrifying acts.
As a christian I can look in the Bible and see people lamenting. In the Bible lamenting was a way of grieving pain, AND asking God to intervene. Over 1/3 of the psalms are laments. There is an entire book of the Bible called Lamentations. The point is God wants us to bring our pain to HIM. Our grief and pain has a place. When we don’t bring our grief and pain to God, it can often turn to anger which if left unchecked eventually leads to hate.
This is actually what we have been teaching our boys lately. And a great way to start the conversation of racism with your kids. Anger leads to Hate, Hate leads to death.
We see this over and over in the Bible. When Cain was angry that God accepted his brothers offering above his own, his anger led to hating his brother, which led him to murdering him. Hate led to death. You can read it here.
We see it again in the Bible, when Joseph received a gift from his dad that his brothers did not get. They were angry, they hated Joseph because their father favored him. Because the brothers let hate fester in their heart for Joseph, they sold Joseph as a slave and told their father a lie that their brother was dead. This story is so fascinating, because in the end Joseph meets his brothers face to face again and had the opportunity to kill his brothers right then. But he didn’t. He confronted his anger and had mercy on his brothers. Joseph looked inward, checked his anger and chose mercy. This led to reconciliation between Joseph and his brothers. He was then reunited with his father, all because Joseph checked his anger. You can read that here.
So lamenting is actually an important step in grief. It is giving your anger a place. It is giving yourself the opportunity and space to grieve that pain. And, it is asking God to intervene. This can be done individually and collectively.
ACT
Jesus came to reconcile us back to him. Just as Jesus’ entire ministry was reconciliation, so is our purpose. We are to be reconcilers. To reconcile means to restore a relationship. So once you have moved through the first two steps: Listen & Look Inward, Lament…then we must Act. What does this look like? Well, it can be different for everyone…depending on where you are in learning about racial reconciliation.
At the very least, diversify the voices you are listening to. Read books from minority authors, diversify your social media, seek out more diversity in your life. Attend diverse programs/festivals in your area. Empathy requires proximity. Get closer.
Educate yourself on racial history. The key point here being educate yourself. Don’t rely on your black friends to educate you on racial history. Google. Get out of your comfort zone! Learn about the racial history in your city. Go to the civil rights museum in your town, or any museum representing minority history. Go to learn.
Look inward. What about racial conversations/history does not sit well with you? Be the Bridge has amazing resources and guided questions to help you look inward.
4. Speak out against injustice. In the Ahmaud Arbery case, it took 3 months for 2 of the 3 men to be arrested and charged. And longer for the third. That was all because an army of citizens spoke up! They signed petitions, made phone calls, and said something! There is still opportunity to speak up for Ahmaud, Breonna, and George. Click here for more on that. The point is, engage. Keep listening, lamenting, and move how you are led. Also, it’s also noteworthy to be aware of laws that perpetuate this type of crime. The citizen’s arrest law is one of those laws that needs to be reviewed and/or abolished. So pay attention to injustice in our legal system as well. With the election coming up, this is also a great opportunity to make changes in leadership. We need leaders who have these issues on their platforms. Educate yourself on who is running, and vote.
5. If this feels very out of character and uncomfortable for you, know that it is for me too! I actually hate politics or anything associated with politics. But this is more about people’s lives than politics. Do I feel completely inadequate? YES! But my friend Latasha Morrison said, God loves to use a remnant and anyone who is willing. So I say, “Here I am God, use me.”
Just start somewhere, and commit to never looking away again. Remember, racial reconciliation work in our own lives is a journey NOT a destination.